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for truth comes wailing

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here is what i am feeling:

a. i am empty.

there is nothing in me.
bare, like my pantry bare, like my love list bare,
like my skin on lonely evenings.

or maybe i am not.

imagine, or think, catamount
climbing your organs
just to reach your larynx
where you

breathe.

no, that didn't do it
now- breathe

to push it back in the 
pit it came from

only feeling the vile that it rises
instead of the blood
that it loosens.

b. i am unfurling.

these eyes hold cataracts not from age but
from ingenuity dealt by god
who didn't like the way my mother
spread her legs.

the world is my braille.

i feel her ovaries her womb her breast her
abdomen unhinging itself beneath my fingers. i feel
every spasm every movement every catch
of breath

i know her.
i read her
like the writer i need to be, like
no one else.

with every line though
comes an end and
i am feeling frantically
for my next verse, 

only finding air.

the earth has become my agitator. it too
poises on the opposite side of the fence
with the rest as it watches me

with pity.

c. i am a liar.

i wait like doris day at the head of the table. i have made
supper and cleaned
china, the silverware
done the clothing, the wash
and blended myself between the shades of
hooker red
alabaster blonde
golden green
and hazel-
the color of woman.

i wait with a foot in my mouth,
a finger under the table
in my cervix.

he asks
out of all the things i ask myself
out of all the things i wished to be asked and
to leave my mouth

if i am satisfied.

he wants betty white, nineteen-fifties
pre-abandonment of womanhood

he wants betty crocker
not the woman, the name
red and white and full of
breasted goodness.

i tell him
that on the rare occasion i get to fucking myself
because he doesn't fuck
with sincerity-- only
a rush

for the taste of himself, his
ego--

barred through the sentence

"why wouldn't i be?"


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